We always thank God for all of you, mentioning you in our prayers. We continually remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.
(I Thessalonians 1:2-3, NIV)
The power of prayer.
I know we've all heard stories about the miraculous power of prayer...from the stories in the Bible to testimonies heard with our own ears, God's done amazing things when His people pray. I've had a chance to experience that first-hand these past 4 months, so let me share how that's impacted me.
When I first found out my kidneys were failing, I prayed like you wouldn't believe. I prayed that they would be healed and function as normal again. I got anointed with my friends in my Sunday School class, and felt confident that God would hear and answer me. About a week later I got word that not only wasn't I healed, but that the damage done was irreversible, and I would need dialysis for the rest of my life unless I was able to find a kidney for donation. I have to admit...for a few days that broke me. I couldn't understand why He didn't answer my prayer...
Then, before I went in to have my permanent catheter put in for dialysis, it hit me. God did answer my prayer...just not the way I hoped. In not healing me, He wanted to show me His glory and power. I made my peace with that, and climbed up in His arms to have Him carry me, instead of me trying to lead Him. It was then that God really showed up...or maybe I just started noticing...
People came out of nowhere to encourage me. I've got churches I've never been to that have me on their weekly prayer list. I've even heard of people who live thousands of miles away that pray for me daily. It's the most amazing, yet humbling thing I've ever experienced. When time came to start the donation process, I hoped one or two would call in to see if they could match and donate. The donation coordinator finally told me to take the number down because she had more calls than she could process. That's amazing, humbling, and just God showing me how much He and others care for me. Also, at dialysis, it became easier to not focus on the fact I was sick and needed treatment, but to notice that God had blessed me with pretty good health in spite of this disease. There are so many there in much worse shape than I am.
Another important thing that has happened with God not healing me is the fact that I've been able to use the peace and good attitude He has given me (and believe me, it's all Him!) about this as a tool to share His love, acceptance, and forgiveness with others. It's opened doors and started conversations that I never would have imagined would've happened without it.
Do I still wish God would have healed me? Selfishly, yes...but I see His plan, and am fine with walking along that path with Him....and I know this only comes from the power of prayer from the many lifting me up daily in His presence.
Don't ever, EVER, underestimate the power of your prayers. Just a few moments of praying for someone can be life-changing for them. Here's hoping we each pray for someone today.